bad dreams:

i absolutely hate having bad dreams... but whats worse, is when you just cant go to sleep after one.

yep you guessed it, i just woke up to a bad dream.

My Dream:

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i was at work, it was the same building, but the table layout was different. i was working with the same people that i work with in real life, in fact, mom and dad were there too.

i started taking tables, got a 2 top, then a 5 top.... they just kept coming... more and more tables, finally my section was jam packed! i was having a difficult time keeping up.

i asked my mom for help, but she was in the back making drinks and taking them to the other side of the restaurant.

all the sudden i started to notice the guests, the gal at the 2 top used to work here,i don't remember her but i have heard about her and she still had her name tag on. but it didn't phase her that it was crazy busy and she kept asking for things she didn't need. the 5 top was a bunch of regulars, and same thing, just expected that because it was them, they deserved all of my attention, and kept telling me lame stories making it hard to get away, even though i had a million things to do.

it was really busy at this point, i remember running back into the kitchen for extra mayo and extra gravy at times.

then my guests started to disappear ... they even disappeared off of my table taking device... then the other gal who i worked with kept coming over and taking care of my guests.... she had her section completely full but was able to take some of my tables because i couldn't keep up. i looked over to a table where a 10 top was, their food was there, but they were not... finally my mom came over to help me and told me that the 10 wanted their waitress to pay more attention to them so they went to the other side.

i was filling up water pitchers and talking to my mom about how im not doing so well tonight and then asked if she knew what i was doing wrong, perhaps a reason to why i couldn't even handle my tables yet the other gal could handle her side and mine combined... mom said that the tables just didn't like me tonight, and that were very upset at how badly i handled taking tables.

finally i decided to call my aunt to come help and she started making up some random excuses as to why she didn't want to come...

then i woke up.

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for those of you who don't know, i am a waitress at family's restaurant. i have been waiting tables for about 3 years now.(i am also the service staff manager :) )

so generally, since i'm a grown up now, my bad dreams start with "i was at work". work is stressful! a lot of crazy things happen! we deal with peoples emotions, and try to move them in the happier/ 'glad they choose us' state. and as we all know: people (guests) are crazy!!

so about this dream, perhaps some of you may be able to relate, but not quite in the same way... the phrase 'Bad Dream' has so many different interpretations.

so a lot of things in my dream can come true, they are very realistic things that sometimes happen...

in my eyes, thats what makes a bad dream: one where it's hard to decipher dream time from reality.

what are some things you do to calm yourself after waking from a bad/stressful dream!?

California Classes

i have had a pretty good month- a lot of good things have happened. I feel a lot more focused, present and ready for whatever might come my way.

i think these good feelings are due to my monthly energy class in california. also, i have been taking fish oil(thankfully no fishy burps(yet)). ohh yes, and 5htp, to keep my brain sharp...


so i would like to share with you my mix i listen to when i travel to California once a month...
[for your convenience and my boredom there are youtube links to some of the songs...]

• The Beach Boys - California Girls
• Copeland - California
• Low - California
• The Beach Boys - California Dreaming
• Joni Mitchell - California
• The Magnetic Fields - California Girls
• Lucksmiths - California in popular song
• Led Zeppelin - Going to California
• of Montreal - Honeymoon in San Francisco
• The Magnetic Fields - come back from San Francisco
• Bright Eyes - June on the West Coast
• The Magnetic Fields - Busby Berkeley Dreams
• Bedlight for Blue Eyes - Leaving Berkeley Heights

the once a month california visit is quite enjoyable. my mom and dad take the class the day before mine. so generally we fly/drive out together.

my favorite part of the california trip is visiting the Olsons (my cousins). i really like spending time with them. we dont always get to see them each month, but i like it when we do!

so our classes are held in the Berkeley area, we usually fly into Oakland and stay in a hotel by the airport.

Things i have yet to do in the Bay Area:

• take BART... anywhere!
• visit San Francisco
• explore the area while my parents are in their class
• drive... although i would rather not, im sure i will need to someday, i dont want to drive in CA...
• eat at super cool places, my family tends to get into food habits, we have 3 food places, and we eat each meal there the whole time we visit.. the places are great! but its always good to mix things up a bit.

i am sure there are many more things i can do and want to do , but for now thats whats on my mind.

so all this talk about my california energy class... perhaps your wondering what it's all about... its an energy class, we have learned about the 7 Chakras, we learn about ways to move energy through the body, different energy types that people run.. we learn about all sorts of stuff.. this class is a 2 year(minimum) commitment, but i think can go up to 7 years, maybe even more!

anyway, i have really enjoyed being in this class and learning more about everything! i think i am growing and changing in such good ways! infact, i know i am!!! things are changing! i feel different! i feel more responsible, alert and more aware of what is going on with and around me. i feel like i can handle so much more, and i am finally realizing that life is just life, events are just events, good or bad, they all happen, and if we can take the good out of everything and learn something from it, then thats great!!!

so im looking forward to march's class. i am ready to learn more. california class, here i come!!!



***on a side note that has NOTHING to do with this entry: tonight i played a fun little game.. when you have about 20 min to spare you could give it a try: www.gettheglass.com hooray for milk. i'm pretty sure its just a game to promote drinking milk. and yes, i did drink a glass of milk with my dinner tonight. hehe.***